I tried to be brave!

 "Everybody has a chapter that they don't read out loud. "

Hello, smart souls. Welcome back to my blog or welcome to my blog in case this is your first visit. Sorry-not sorry, for not posting for a long time. But I'm working on some great things. Please don't ask me what it is. I wanna surprise you all. 

So for today's blog post, I will be telling you guys why I have a blog/why I love writing/ I tried to be brave.

So, let's waste some time together [kinda 'cause I'm, bored]

Honestly, writing wasn't my plan. I started writing-unconsciously- when I was in 2nd grade when I was around 9-10 years old.

Whenever I used to feel low/bad I used to grab the nearest book, skip to the last page, and start writing. My tears running down my face, my hand- writing ASAP so that I don't forget anything. And that is also the reason why I have bad handwriting

 And then after a few days, while cleaning my room, I find that book, jump straight to the last page, and laugh. Laughing at my handwriting, laughing about the spelling mistakes, laughing about the grammar, and in the end laughing about the event that I threw such a big tantrum about. And I still do that. It feels good, you should give it a shot.

Then I came to know about this blogging world in 2020, thanks to the pandemic. And it was a task to publish a blog post. So I picked up my "not sharing-but sharing" book and copied the first page of it. And shared it. It felt amazing. And It still feels amazing to be brave and fight my fears and get out of my comfort zone.

I tried to be brave and started a 2nd blog called "arshiology" and deleted it 'cause I was feeling uncomfortable sharing about myself. 

I was planning about this blog post for months but haven't worked on it. And today, I am gathering up every single bit of courage and confidence that I have to write and publish this post.

Coming to CONTINUING this blog, I actually loved the part of researching and sharing it.

And hopefully, I will continue. Unfortunately, I'm having a hard time improving, 'cause of a lack of feedback.

I actually have several drafts that I wanna share but I'm not sharing. Can't be that brave I guess. Remembering the quote, "there is only one way to eat an elephant: a bit at a time" so this is a tiny little step to overcome my fear of trusting people and be comfortable to share my true-honest feeling

You think I trust you? then think again. I don't even trust my best friends and they know it. I only trust two people one myself, and the other is god.

I guess I successfully wasted your time. So let's end it now.[running out of courage] Go ahead and be brave. Fighting your fears is the most adventurous/satisfying feeling ever. Coming straight from an Experience holder.